I’m Tired

I’d like to think I have something profound to say today, but after reading Stasi’s blog I just feel like her words are more powerful and really express what I am feeling so I want to share them with you.  She says:

Status – I’m Tired
“When I hop on Facebook, which I confess, I haven’t been doing as faithfully as I want to be, it always asks me my “Status” and 90% of the time, I want to write “I’m tired.”  But that isn’t very cheery or encouraging so I let that pass and dig down into what is more deeply true.  “I’m loved.”……………

My times with God haven’t involved long times in the Word or even much worship but instead an adult coloring book.  I color away while meditating on one scripture.  Very soothing.  I recommend it if you can make the space to sit still for more than a moment.  Sitting still for more than a moment is also something I recommend.

At the beginning of each year, John and I pray and ask Jesus what his “word” or scripture is over our lives for the whole year.  In that past, it’s been “Intimacy”  (yay!) or “Follow” (yes!).  Sometimes it takes me more than a month to hear anything.

Last night he answered.  The word is “Fresh”.

Fresh.

Oh my.  I need fresh.  It feels like the opposite of tired.  Just hearing his word and intention over my life breathes new hope into the places that have become weary.  I am so grateful.

So, wherever you are at, and I mean WHEREVER you are at…I want to encourage you to ask your Father for his intention, his word over this next season over your life.  And then wait.  Keep asking until you hear.  And when you do hear (and you will), WRITE IT DOWN.  Put it on your mirror.  Write it at the beginning of your journal.  Dive into the word and explore it in scripture.  Camp in it.

I’m sure going to.  Because “tired” is not what Jesus has for me.  I’m not running from it or pretending I’m not feeling it but I am saying YES to God.  I desire the fresh wind of life that God has for me.  And I want it for you too.”

Stasi’s Blog

I love her idea of adult coloring book as devotion time.  I purchased one but have not started it yet.  Creative time helps relieve stress and I can see that just sitting and coloring with a scripture on your mind would be very refreshing.

That is definitely how I feel some days.  Just plain tired, worn, exhausted.  Mentally, physically and yes, spiritually.

Tenth Avenue North’s song speaks to this ache in my soul so many times.

“I know that You can give me rest, so I cry out with all I have left……..”